Cooler Weather!!!

Just in time for fall!!! 64 degrees this morning and it was great!!!! I am feeling more upbeat from last weeks slide downhill. It lasted a few days, but by Thursday I was much better!!!

B and I ran to my parents house on Saturday, not because that was our plan but because I locked us out of the house...lol! Good thing my parents only live a mile from me! I ran all the way, albeit very slowly cause B didn't run very fast, and walked most of the way. I didn't want to leave him behind. Then we walked most of the way back. He had his football game Saturday and they won. So all in all it was a good weekend!

Hope you had a great weekend too!!!

Another Day...

So yesterday and today I have just felt hopeless. I feel depression rearing it's ugly head! I am only running a mile now. I am irritable with Briley. He is failing math, his football practice is a beating for me. I feel fat, and I am pretty sure that there is nobody out there for me. Plus I am waiting on the shoe to drop on BD! For the first time since I stopped my antidepressants I thought about starting a new one. I am fighting it though. I hope this will pass....but right now all I want to do is lay in bed, and cry.

Chemistry....

Or lack there of! I just didn't feel it on my date Friday night:( I hate dating! The whole process sucks! Especially if there is no chemistry! Then you have to let them down if they did feel something. Don't get me wrong it was a nice date, there was just no physical attraction. I get so frustrated...I am sure I will be single the rest of my life:/ I often wonder if it is worse to have never been married....or to have been married and divorced?! Cause if I meet a guy that has never been married, even I wonder what is wrong with him! So I know they have to think the same about me! Sigh....

Date NOT!

That's right....no date:(  He canceled...babysitter issues. He has custody of his kids. We are still texting and we talked on the phone. Supposed to reschedule soon. He is going to try to switch with a coworker to see if he can get off work this Friday. We shall see:)

I ran 3K this morning! I am going to try to run every morning this week. It was hard but I made it! I really do think that it helps with my depression. I find that, even though I still get down, the hopeless feeling isn't unbearable.

To help with my depression....FOOTBALL season is back!!! YAY! My favorite season of the year! My Saints beat the Falcons yesterday!!!! That was a HUGE game, and a very good one...came down to the last minute! So that in itself starts my week out GRRRREAT!!!!

Have a great day everyone!

Just Running

So I have ditched the C25K app. With me being my own worst enemy, every time I didn't make a day, I would beat myself up about it! So I just used my iPod running app. Set it on 3K, that sounds so much better than 1.89 miles, and set out! I am just going to do this at my own pace! Just run! Run until I decide to stop. I think this way I will do better. Of course I know some people strive to reach goals, and so do I, but I also am to hard on myself if I don't make it. Which isn't good for depression. Trial and error:)

So my date is tonight....AHHHH! I am nervous, but excited! He called me yesterday at work. That is the first time we talked on the phone. Nobody is to charming over text. We talked for almost 45 mins! He was funny and sweet. I guess only time will tell....

Who needs a day of rest

I decided to get out there again today. I still didn't make the 28 min run though. I have decided to quit pushing myself to finish this app. I am going to just run until I decide it is time to quit. I will have to download a running app though. One that tells me distance/time. Anyone know of any good ones? Preferably cheap or better yet free:)

I am still struggling with my diet. Man I hate diets! I love food! I drink half my body weight in water every day, and I still seem to eat the same:( I need to learn to make healthier choices. That is no fun, but it will help me be healthier and hopefully live a long life:)

Foiled Once Again!

Shoot, shoot, SHOOT! It is going to take me a month to get W7 done! This morning I tried a new breathing method, and either I wasn't doing it right, or it doesn't work for me. Early on I felt like I couldn't catch my breath, my head started to hurt, I got queasy and dizzy! I had to stop:(  That is the only thing I did different so I won't be doing THAT again!

I took the 3 day weekend and didn't run all weekend, including yesterday. I just couldn't drag myself out of bed yesterday morning. I tried! I set my alarm, but just turned it off and went back to sleep. Oh well, it was a holiday for me:) I got bit by the Labor Day Lazy bug;) B and I watched movies, spent time with my best friend and her family, and my parents, went grocery shopping, and B went skating with one of his friends. Oh and I caught up on my DVR! I can't believe there are only 3 episodes of Dexter left!!! This breaks my heart:(

Sooooo, I do have a date for this Friday. It came out of nowhere really! I sure wasn't expecting it. Kinda nervous, kinda excited....but mostly nervous:)

Have a good day everyone!