Beat down

2 bad runs in one week:(  This morning I can't blame it on anything but me, I just quit. I could have kept going, I just didn't want to. Why can't this be easier. So much of this is mental...and well my mental state is one of the things that I am trying to make better....without meds! It is almost a constant struggle telling myself to keep going, that I am worth it. Then if I don't make it, I beat myself down about it. Like I failed. When deep down I know that hey at least I got out there and tried. I wonder if this will get any easier?!  I will push on though! I am determined to finish C25K!