Thank you Capital One

I don't know if it is getting close to that time of the month, or I am just losing interest in running. I am not nearly where I use to be. I went this morning, but I really didn't want to. Normally the day before I at least look forward to it, but I was looking for excuses not to. this is just like me...I never finish anything. Maybe it is just another depression slump....who knows. I am going to change things up a bit. I am going to do a 30 min exercise show in the morning. Maybe that will help. We shall see.

I never got my child support for last week. I can not believe it has come to this. I honestly do not know what has gotten into him. I told BD's estranged wife about what I was doing. I asked her not to tell, but I am paranoid now that she has. He asked me the other day for my address....I asked what he needed it for and he said never mind. At this point I don't really care if she told him or not. I just want it to be done.  I am not good at waiting.

THANK YOU Capital One, my checking account was completely reimbursed!!!

Karma Train

They make me sick!!! The people that steal for a living! While I am out working my butt off for what I have, they are sitting behind a computer hacking away. Getting peoples debit card numbers, social security numbers and stealing peoples identities.

I got paid Thursday, and while I was sleeping Thursday night, some hacker (or whatever you want to call them) cleaned out my checking account! My bank put a hold on the card and flagged it fraud, but not before I only had $.13 left! You read that right 13 CENTS!! Thank God for Capital One, they caught it. I had to go get a temp card, wait for my new card to come in the mail, and I have to wait until the charges aren't pending to dispute them. Good news is I will get it back! It just infuriates me! Oh well it could be worse....I have a savings account and that is all still there!!! Which is awesome cause that is where I put money to save for my rent every month!

So today is football day! The game isn't until 12:30 but we have to be a the field so he can take pictures at 9:00AM. I had to borrow money from my parents to get the pictures, since my checking account is empty....sigh. The Karma train is going to take care of whoever did this!!!

Flu Shot and Football

They were giving free flu shots at work yesterday if you had insurance through the company. SCORE!!! Of course we have to pay for the insurance, so I guess we pay for it. But it said free....so that made me happy! The guy giving it wasn't real good at giving shots, and it hurt for a while, but now it feels fine. I have never had the flu before...but better safe than sorry.

B's football practice....I have started going to the track to walk/run while he is at practice. I tried to walk the stairs also, they are super steep and I only got one done! Then I nearly had a panic attack coming down! Exercising in the heat of the evening is WAY harder than exercising in the nice cool mornings!

Hope you have a good day!

Cooler Weather!!!

Just in time for fall!!! 64 degrees this morning and it was great!!!! I am feeling more upbeat from last weeks slide downhill. It lasted a few days, but by Thursday I was much better!!!

B and I ran to my parents house on Saturday, not because that was our plan but because I locked us out of the house...lol! Good thing my parents only live a mile from me! I ran all the way, albeit very slowly cause B didn't run very fast, and walked most of the way. I didn't want to leave him behind. Then we walked most of the way back. He had his football game Saturday and they won. So all in all it was a good weekend!

Hope you had a great weekend too!!!

Another Day...

So yesterday and today I have just felt hopeless. I feel depression rearing it's ugly head! I am only running a mile now. I am irritable with Briley. He is failing math, his football practice is a beating for me. I feel fat, and I am pretty sure that there is nobody out there for me. Plus I am waiting on the shoe to drop on BD! For the first time since I stopped my antidepressants I thought about starting a new one. I am fighting it though. I hope this will pass....but right now all I want to do is lay in bed, and cry.

Chemistry....

Or lack there of! I just didn't feel it on my date Friday night:( I hate dating! The whole process sucks! Especially if there is no chemistry! Then you have to let them down if they did feel something. Don't get me wrong it was a nice date, there was just no physical attraction. I get so frustrated...I am sure I will be single the rest of my life:/ I often wonder if it is worse to have never been married....or to have been married and divorced?! Cause if I meet a guy that has never been married, even I wonder what is wrong with him! So I know they have to think the same about me! Sigh....

Date NOT!

That's right....no date:(  He canceled...babysitter issues. He has custody of his kids. We are still texting and we talked on the phone. Supposed to reschedule soon. He is going to try to switch with a coworker to see if he can get off work this Friday. We shall see:)

I ran 3K this morning! I am going to try to run every morning this week. It was hard but I made it! I really do think that it helps with my depression. I find that, even though I still get down, the hopeless feeling isn't unbearable.

To help with my depression....FOOTBALL season is back!!! YAY! My favorite season of the year! My Saints beat the Falcons yesterday!!!! That was a HUGE game, and a very good one...came down to the last minute! So that in itself starts my week out GRRRREAT!!!!

Have a great day everyone!

Just Running

So I have ditched the C25K app. With me being my own worst enemy, every time I didn't make a day, I would beat myself up about it! So I just used my iPod running app. Set it on 3K, that sounds so much better than 1.89 miles, and set out! I am just going to do this at my own pace! Just run! Run until I decide to stop. I think this way I will do better. Of course I know some people strive to reach goals, and so do I, but I also am to hard on myself if I don't make it. Which isn't good for depression. Trial and error:)

So my date is tonight....AHHHH! I am nervous, but excited! He called me yesterday at work. That is the first time we talked on the phone. Nobody is to charming over text. We talked for almost 45 mins! He was funny and sweet. I guess only time will tell....

Who needs a day of rest

I decided to get out there again today. I still didn't make the 28 min run though. I have decided to quit pushing myself to finish this app. I am going to just run until I decide it is time to quit. I will have to download a running app though. One that tells me distance/time. Anyone know of any good ones? Preferably cheap or better yet free:)

I am still struggling with my diet. Man I hate diets! I love food! I drink half my body weight in water every day, and I still seem to eat the same:( I need to learn to make healthier choices. That is no fun, but it will help me be healthier and hopefully live a long life:)

Foiled Once Again!

Shoot, shoot, SHOOT! It is going to take me a month to get W7 done! This morning I tried a new breathing method, and either I wasn't doing it right, or it doesn't work for me. Early on I felt like I couldn't catch my breath, my head started to hurt, I got queasy and dizzy! I had to stop:(  That is the only thing I did different so I won't be doing THAT again!

I took the 3 day weekend and didn't run all weekend, including yesterday. I just couldn't drag myself out of bed yesterday morning. I tried! I set my alarm, but just turned it off and went back to sleep. Oh well, it was a holiday for me:) I got bit by the Labor Day Lazy bug;) B and I watched movies, spent time with my best friend and her family, and my parents, went grocery shopping, and B went skating with one of his friends. Oh and I caught up on my DVR! I can't believe there are only 3 episodes of Dexter left!!! This breaks my heart:(

Sooooo, I do have a date for this Friday. It came out of nowhere really! I sure wasn't expecting it. Kinda nervous, kinda excited....but mostly nervous:)

Have a good day everyone!